Keeping loyal to a forgotten promise.

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What's holding you back?

A little promise made a long time ago? A promise made by someone who probably doesn't even remember it himself? Someone who has shoved you off the hill a million times for their own convenience. You were there, when they chose to unsee your existence. Oh how it broke your heart, as you watched that once so familiar pass you by. and that little amount of time you felt so far apart. A little tear swimming in the bounds of your eyes, cause you were so afraid of someone seeing it. Your weary heart trying to keep with the erratic breathing of chest. You knew them as much as they claimed you didn't. and you loved them even more than that. 

How you longed to go back in the time just to live those little moments full of happiness once again and how you wished to relive them over and over again and how you prayed you could have avoided the situation that ended in them leaving you altogether. How you cursed yourself for all the wrong in you. How much you wished you were perfect enough to keep them forever. How incomplete you felt in their absence. And how powerless you feel when you see them now and can't claim your love as before.

But it has been you all along, who's holding yourself back. You chose to never leave the place you were left. You chose to wait. They had already moved on the moment they stepped out. You chose to wait for a lost cause. You chose to not look for love elsewhere. When you had people all around you willing to give you all the love you needed, you chose to look for love in the eyes who had stopped loving you a long time ago. You were keeping a promise someone else made to you and forgot to keep.

Truth is both of you, them and you, chose to love them. It was all about about them, everything. And you was a collateral existence backing the cause. You always made sure you love them and they made sure they were loved. and somehow you translated that to a gesture of love.

If they chose to leave. Let them. Don't unlove them. But stop waiting for them. start looking for love. the selfless kind, the real  kind. Somewhere, where your presence is appreciated and your absence noted. 

CHOOSE TO LOVE YOURSELF BECAUSE NOONE WILL DO THAT FOR YOU.

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