Penpals

Sometimes I pretend to be all grown up and moved on with life but truth is I still miss you. Your innocence, your uncontrollable laughter, your big ideas about life. How you would jump out of excitement when you would encounter change. How happy you would become when you met new people, telling them about all the stories you knew, new and old. How you would dance in the rain. How you would get over things that were meant to hurt you. How you loved people. How you never noticed the flaws with in them, instead you saw beauty.  I still remember the days when you would talk to animals, flowers, the moon and the stars. I still remember how you would weave your dreams, day and night and the plans you made. How with every defeat and betrayal you still saw the best in people. you would make yourself believe that you could move mountains if you put yourself upto it. How you waited for that one human to show up_your person. But nothing went as you planned, people changed on and on again. The...

What's holding you back? A little promise made a long time ago? A promise made by someone who probably doesn't even remember it himself? Someone who has shoved you off the hill a million times for their own convenience. You were there, when they chose to unsee your existence. Oh how it broke your heart, as you watched that once so familiar pass you by. and that little amount of time you felt so far apart. A little tear swimming in the bounds of your eyes, cause you were so afraid of someone seeing it. Your weary heart trying to keep with the erratic breathing of chest. You knew them as much as they claimed you didn't. and you loved them even more than that.  How you longed to go back in the time just to live those little moments full of happiness once again and how you wished to relive them over and over again and how you prayed you could have avoided the situation that ended in them leaving you altogether. How you cursed yourself for all the wrong in you. How much you w...

So you say, you loved them and so you wanted to protect it from all the bad that had happened to you. You wanted them to not scar in the spots as you. You didn't want them to shed tears on their pillows every night. But that made you grow, didn't it. Thats what matured you. Thats what made you in the person you are today. And don't you think you would most likely repeat the same mistakes in again, given the chance?   Then why do you think halting someone's most needed experience in the process of growth is loving? Do we all not break our hearts once or twice? Do we all not yearn for something so bad, something that we end up losing? Do we all not get tired every night after a long day of running after things that are never ours? Do we all not cry every night or a night every week or month over the things that made our hearts ache? But then did we not learn from it? Did we not learn how to heal our hearts? Did we not learn how to give up our most precious belongings for ...

A JOURNEY TOWARDS THE LIGHT: S omehow, we have all been through those difficult times when everything seems so  heavy, unmanageable and tiring.  It becomes difficult for us to smile . Life seems nothing but a burden that has to be carried around without any gains. We have everyone around us yet we feel so alone. Nothing seems to bring us pleasure. with every wrong happening we feel like being pushed into that blue world , of fears and cries , more and more. WE ASK OURSELVES: WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME? DOES THIS HAPPEN TO ME ONLY? AM I BEING PSYCHOTIC OR SOMETHING OR WHAT? So the answer is:   NO ,YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE FACING IT NOR ARE YOU BEING PSYCHOTIC ! The  fact is that the world we are living in is just as good and merciful as it seems bad and evil. You just need the right eye to see that. But first of all you need to get rid of these negative emotions. There is no one that can help you out of that depressed and anxious state of mind bu...