My unmet Forever

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 Someone I keep waiting for. Someone I keep telling myself will come one day and may be show my life to the completion I so desire. A person who will never leave, my forever person_ My Person. Someone God made just for me. Someone flawed in the places I love. Someone who will fill the gaps in me. A breath of fresh air on the brazen hot days of this weary life. Someone who makes you fall in love with the feeling of love and life itself. 

On some of my worst days, I would just close my eyes and call out to him in my heart, "I know you're out there somewhere. And I know that you yearn for me the same way I do for you. I know I will find you someday." and sometimes I swear I could feel him answering back to me. Other times he seems like mirage I keep running after but he keeps running away from me. I run and I run but there's still no sight of him. But somehow I still keep wondering in this endless miserable desert of life. 

But then, isn't it good that he is so far away, a beautiful shadow so comforting to think about when I feel dejected. a beautiful daydream I can cling onto forever. Because what if he is not all that I've thought him to be. May be his words would cut me in the places I cherish the most. What if my tears are nothing but water to him, my sobs are nothing but an uncomfortable sound he would shush up. What if he would act as selfishly as the rest of the world. What if he robs me of this single hope in life, of meeting my unmet beautiful forever_ a happily ever after.

I am trapped in this uncomfortable situation of "I wish" and "What ifs". Fearing the thought of both meeting and not meeting him. And the wait seems like forever....

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  1. The Shadow7 August 2025 at 23:59

    It’s strange how deeply this touched me,as if every word was meant for me - or maybe for someone who feels the same way i do but never says it aloud. Whoever this is written for… they r incredibly lucky.some souls really do recognize home in someone else.

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    1. Ayesha Khan8 August 2025 at 14:36

      i am glad to know that someone connects with my writing, makes me feel seen and heard. May you find your person.

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    2. The Shadow8 August 2025 at 19:59

      Thank u for your kind wish.But the person i loved once is buried deep inside me - in a place even i don’t visit anymore.That love no longer speaks, but its silence still echoes. As far as ur writingg is concerned, it’s truly beautiful and meaningful, continue to write, grow stronger, and stay happy, healthy, and at peace.

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    3. Ayesha Khan13 August 2025 at 09:42

      Thank you.

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